Sept 2009: 6,800 words, 27 pages
Jan 2012: 10,131 words, 42 pages
Feb 2012: 0
Mar 2012: 0
Apr 2012: 13,513 words, 53 pages
May 2012: 19,282 words, 80 pages
June 2012: 23,056 words, 95 pages
July 2012: 29,517 words, 123 pages
Aug 2012: 35,058 words, 146 pages
I started this in 2009, put it down and didn't look at it again for three whole years. I never even said it out loud to anyone that writing a book was something I wanted to do until this year even though it's been floating around in the back of my mind for a really long time. I mean, you can't just casually say, "Oh, yeah I want to write a book." It just seems so impossible. I mean, who am I to think I am actually capable of such a thing anyways? I love to read and to write. I used to sign up for Summer reading programs at the library. I've been writing in journals since I was 9. I used to write stories and enter writing contests in elementary school. It's always just been something that I love to do but I have no clue if I'm any good at it. If I'd been true to my heart in college I probably would have majored in creative writing. In retrospect I wish I had. Sociology may have seemed more practical at the time but I've never even come close to working in that field so there was really no point. I could have gotten a degree in anything based on where I'm at now. Writing a book has always been a dream of mine but I put it off for so long because I was afraid. I didn't know where to begin and I was afraid of finding out that I wasn't capable of it. Eventually, I put some words on paper in 2009 and got a nice start but then I got stumped. Then life happened. I was too busy with house hunting, wedding planning and post wedded bliss. There was always some excuse.
Even now that I've decided I'm doing this the words "my book" still feel very strange coming out of my mouth. It's something that a lot of people say they want to do but only a handful ever actually do. I really want to be one of the ones that do. I'm not even worried about whether or not I would get it published or not. I just want to be able to say that it was something big I wanted to do and that I did it.