Like a woman possessed I got into my car on my lunch break and drove to DSW. A couple weeks ago it was The Limited to update my work pants and about a week later I went to Express with a coupon and got some really cute cotton fashion tees. And now this. I don't know what's gotten into me but I'd be lying if I said I'm not enjoying it. I am not typically a habitual shopper but for the third time this month I found myself doing just that. I LOVE DSW shoes and I walked out with not one, not two, but three pairs! What initially brought me in there was the
desire need to replace a pair of my tan wedge slides that Mj sort of teases me about wearing because quite frankly, they are ugly. There was a day I thought they were cute but that day has long since been done and gone. It is not uncommon for me to wear ugly items of clothing hanging around my wardrobe simply because I need to wear them with certain outfits and have nothing else to replace it. Terrible I know, but due to financial considerations sometimes budget trumps fashion and like it or not that's just the way it goes.
|My shoe shopping haul-all on clearance at DSW|
So, getting back to my DSW trip. I checked out the regular priced area and didn't see much so I went back to the clearance section and instead of two rows of last season's rejects I was pleasantly surprised at the huge selection they had in big foot size. Which is a 10. I found a perfect replacement for my ugly tan shoes in a 9.5 for $35.98. Thank goodness they fit and they are so comfortable. The heel height is perfect for me. I can wear them to work and I'll even want to wear them on the weekends. Then, I also found a pair of basic Guess black flip flops for $14.96 which I also feel justified in purchasing because I need a pair for my honeymoon. Now the third pair. Well, the only justification I can come up for those is that comfort is very important to me. There was no way I could pass up these comfortable soft leather moccasin like yet extremely adorable flats. I have lusted after similar flats before. These are B Makowki's and apparently they use really fine leather which must be why they are so comfortable. They were originally $89.94 but like the other two, 40% off so I got them for $59.94. I have a pair of bronze flats that I will likely chuck in favor of these. They aren't very comfortable but I wore them anyhow because it's the only pair I had in that color.
The lady in line before me insisted on removing all shoes from the boxes so she could place them discreetly in a bag to hide her shopping from her husband. I thought that was funny. I know she isn't the only woman out there shopping on the down low. I on the other hand excitedly rush into the house and share my purchases with my husband. He actually gets excited for me when I shop because he knows how often I deny myself things that I want and/or need.
This is new territory for someone who used to make a sport of denying myself simple pleasures and I have to say it feels good. Almost exactly a year ago I went shopping and practically had a nervous breakdown. I became filled with dread over what I had done. My friend and I wore our new boots out of the store so I couldn't take them back. Mj was overseas at the time and when I told him I bought a pair of Uggs I was so upset I burst into tears. I smashed every bit of joy out of getting something nice for myself. Which is ridiculous because I save religiously and have been since I was 16. In lean times it may not have been much but saving has always been a top priority and I certainly know how to do without when the money isn't there. I don't have credit card debt and I take care of bills first. I work hard dammit! I need to allow myself to enjoy things. Within reason of course. Which it is because I am still under the monthly budget that I set for myself. I will not be buying a Louis Vuitton Purse and Anthropologie is still mostly out of the question but a trip to Macy's where I buy a few things or heaven forbid a $140 pair of boots should never feel like the end of the world. I know when to stop.
Budget is the determining factor for everything. I may not like it but I accept that I must live within my means weather I like those means or not. It's been an expensive year. Planning a wedding, turning my condo into a rental property, and buying a house took priority over everything else. We still have our honeymoon and next thing you know it'll be Christmas. After years of shopping with anxiety, many moons of being on total shopping lock down, and more recently shopping just for the house I am finally shopping for me AND enjoying it. It's about time and I love it!!