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The thing is, I have never had much luck when it comes to jobs. Perhaps I sell myself short. Maybe I haven't tried hard enough, looked in the right places or marketed myself well enough. I am just not that person who managed to snag that great job or passes their resume to a friend who knows someone at such and such company. I never knew what I wanted to be and I still don't. I majored in Sociology and all I knew was that I didn't want to be a teacher. My first job out of College was a Claims Adjuster. Oh, how I despised that job. I wasted years in an industry that I no longer wanted to be in and without any other job skills I knew I was headed for a major salary cut.
Federal jobs have good benefits and the pay was better then what I was finding in the private sector so I relentlessly scoured website after website and applied for job after job. Their application processes is detailed, cumbersome and time consuming but I kept at it hopeful that if I was persistent enough something would come my way. Over a year of that and I never even got an interview. Ever. Thank goodness I finally got a break and got hired where I'm at. After about 6 months I continued to apply for Federal jobs and other state jobs that paid at least what I was getting until I finally gave up for good. Half the time I think they post those positions just to say that they did it because the person who gets the job is usually sitting in the office across the hall or someone who knows someone that's doing the hiring. Luckily, I got a transfer out of the office that originally hired me which was NOT a good fit for me and I am happy where I'm at. More money would be nice but you can't always have it all.
I still don't know what I want to do so getting a Master's seems pointless. I have settled in where I'm at. Right now, it's enough just for me to have a secure job with great benefits that doesn't make me want to jump off of a cliff at the end of the day.
In my shock of learning that a resume expert was going to be writing my resume I forgot to thank MJ for being thoughtful enough to even do that for me in the first place. I may have given up on the notion of ever making more money or having a "hot" job but he hasn't and I think that is so sweet. New job opportunities just seem to fall in his lap and he is well qualified so he kinda has an entirely different outlook on the whole job and career thing then I do. I am so glad that MJ saw other qualities in me that made him want me. The employment gods may not shine upon me but the love gods did when they sent me him.
It's funny how I have this child like anything is possible mentality when it comes to modeling or winning that dream vacation but not when it comes to my career prospects. Without direction or a passion for something practical I am lost. Not everyone is meant to have a career and I may never make a living by following my bliss. So, instead I will keep content with doing what I love which is writing what I want and modeling when I can. Instead of wracking my brain trying to figure out what I want to be, I finally just decided to be who I am.